Get Happy.

Sometimes instead of getting 'skinny' I wonder if I need to really REALLY dig down deep and.. well.. Get Happy.

What makes me happy?  Let's make a list, because lists are delightful.

- tap dance sequences (watching them and when I have to - doing them well AND right)
- the smell of rain
- walking down the boardwalk on the beach
- being alone
- baths that have no timeframe
- meeting new people
- Gene Kelly .. Judy Garland..  Fred.. Ginger.. Frank.. the whole blast from the past gang that makes theatre so sooo beautiful and inspiring to me
- singing
- girl nights
- date nights
- conversations that are more than just fake bantering
- problem solving
- seeing big fluffy snowflakes at nighttime when they get illuminated by streetlights.. it's romantic in a weird way
- puppies.  (come on... what's more innocent and delightful than a puppy?)

The list could go on.  I think the point is...  I'm not entirely sure how happy I am in regards to how happy the average person should be.  We all have issues.  We all have drama.  We all have highs and lows.  Sometimes I wonder if I just take things too personally and forget to really let go to those little things and move onto the bigger picture of life.  This is probably a really good thing should I ever actually land a theatre gig - the life experience is adding up and making me feel more full of emotion than I ever was in theatre school.  Even on a happy scale.  I've been really really happy sometimes and really really sad.  Confusion.  I'm probably just completely normal.  Regardless - being an 'actor' kind of tunes me in a little too much to my emotions, and for once in my life... I feel that I understand what truly 'tapping in' to those emotions feel like.  If I had to cry on stage right now... I feel like I could.

... I don't know if that's a good thing.  I generally like to have a wee bit of a wall up.  It adds mystery you know?

Anyway.  Being a girl who is pretty scatterbrained...  I'm always looking to try new things.  The hot yoga studio by my place has a special on and upon returning from Mexico I want to set up a new challenge for myself.  Life is about challenge.. and I like beating my own expectations.  SO the deal is... the hot yoga studio has unlimited yoga - 30 days.. 30 dollars (that's awesome)... soooo if I join for 30 days, looking at the schedule - I can make a lot of classes that will fit quite nicely around my work schedule.  I should probably be able to go around 20 of those 30 days.  Yoga is supposed to really connect you to the mind, body, and soul.  Since I am kind of out of whack I figure this might be some quality .. roasty.. soul searching opportunity.

And well - it won't hurt the mission for eternal hotness either! baha ha ha.

Anyway.  I chose to put a link up to Judy Garland singing Get Happy.  Her theme song... she had soooooo many issues and was able to get on stage and be absolutely incomparable.  She sings Get Happy when she herself is in a nasty spiral of drugs.. eating disorders.. and self abuse.  She was a hell of a woman.  And she inspires me.  SO THERE!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2U-rBZREQMw